I don’t feel like going to Burns’.

He’s really annoying and its just gonna be him, Mark, and Kelly there anyway. Im more inclined to just sit at home and listen to music and watch The Simpsons. I would feel much more at peace doing just that.

I’ll tell him that I had to help mom out with something. That’s a valid excuse…

Mary’s still on my mind. Its just that she seems so easy to get along with. Its like I can be me and do stuff that I enjoy and she can have fun doing it, too. Like, she wouldn’t have anything against just relaxing and playing video games or something. She doesn’t fit into the stereotypical girl that needs to go out and do something all the time. I cant even imagine what her & Chris did when they went out. He’s this super-jock, popular, good looking kid that was hers and yet she wasn’t satisfied. Maybe she saw through that and sat that although he is a nice kid, that he’s just not for her. I can go out & have fun. And its not the suger-coated, wholesome fun like Chris creates, or the bad-ass cooler than you lets-get-drunk-and-see-what-happens kind of fun either. Its in the middle. I like to screw around with people and not always do the same thing all the time, but not to a point where it becomes annoying, just entertaining…

Whew, I went off on a tangent there. Ok, well I’ll ask her tomorrow if we’re still hanging out that night. If it’s a reluctant “year” I’ll know she’s met and is possibly going out w/ D O’C. If it’s enthusiastic then I’ll feel good, but won’t know how to react. If I’m to passe about it, she’ll feel slighted, but I brought it up, so she’ll see right through that anyway. Best case scenario:

“Yeah”
“Ok, cool, what’re we gonna do”
“I don’t know what do you want to do”
“No idea, we’ll just see what happens”
“yeah, that’s cool”

Worst case scenario:

“Going hang out……?”
“Um..yeah, sure”

Then, talks to Alicia about the whole D O’C situation and things get REALLY awkward between me, Mary, and Alicia. So she tells Dan and they all feel sorry for me, so I go, possibly with D O’C and Im the 3rd wheel.

Ugh…that sucks…well, I’ll give it a shot, it’s probably going to fall somewhere between the ideal & worst cases, so I have to try… I still feel reluctance as I write this, but I will its no big deal…