Again, I have Alicia on the brain.

I gave her a ride home since she totaled her car and with any luck, I’ll be riding her home a lot more often and maybe I can make it a regular thing. Courtney & Mary are rock solid, and now he’s hanging out with Dan and Alicia, taking my rightful place.

Whatever. I don’t need them. Mary goes for the looks & personality and even popularity. He’s everything on the surface. And I’m nothing. But I like it that way. I don’t care. She probably knows I like her, and she probably told Courtney, and they had a good laugh and neither of them gave it a second thought. I’m a minor threat.

So I don’t care anymore. I don’t want to be recognized. I don’t want to pass their tests. I don’t want to be part of the social elite.

I can’t change my personality to suit their needs. So I won’t. Next year is a whole new world. Sure, Alicia & Curtis are going to be there, but my life starts then.

It starts over, at least. That is when I really start living. I have a taste of it now, but I get the whole thing in time. I can’t wait to be on my own. I thrive in that. So I will let no one or nothing bring me down, even if inadvertantly.