Amy will not stop calling me.

I could see if she wanted to talk to me every once in a while or something, but now it’s every day. I don’t get a fucking day where she doesn’t call me. I’m trying to subtly tell her that I don’t want to be with her, but she’s so damn pushy & persistent and it’s getting really annoying.

If I quit, that’s the extreme situation, but it would be an easy way to slowly let go. She’s really starting to piss me off. And it’s mostly Eric’s fault. This fucking sucks. Why do I attract these nutcases?

First Krystal, now Amy. I think I’m too damn niceBut I say fuck it. If I have to blatantly say it, then I will. I don’t want to go out with you.

She won’t stop talking to me, and it’ll be more comfortable. The End.

I’m happy I got to go to Mary and Alicia’s lunches today. I would do it every day, but Smith tags along with everything I do, so I don’t know if I could do that to him. I love the fact that Mary & I share so much in common. Of course, Curt resents me because I made fun of him, but if that makes Mary & I closer, than so be it. She’s starting to confide in me, but her and Courtney are still a thing, so I don’t know what the hell to do to deal with that. Just have to hope.

I mean, he’s friends with friggin’ Donna. How can he be with a girl like Mary? She’s just so cool and we are so alike that it absolutely kills me to see time wasted with him.

Every day I like Mary more. We’re perfect for each other. We have so much shit in common. I would be so happy if she were mine. It’s a possibility. It’s a damn good possibility.

Anyway, next year is going to rule. With or without Alicia, I’m participating in activism. That’s what I’ve been waiting for. Fighting for change with a group of people. I really can’t wait.

Green hair on graduation day. With Alicia by my side, walking happily in stride. I can’t wait for that day. Bittersweet? Oh, no. I’ll be hanging out at home. No job, no car, no obligation. Just a smile while soaking in the sun and making every moment count down to me and not anyone else!

Mememememe

Summer of graduation life.

Also on my agenda is court tomorrow. One of the inspirations for this book to begin with. I’ll probably go buy another shirt or pants and give my best attempt. If it doesn’t work, then at least I tried. It’ll be insurance for another couple months, then I stop payment altogether. Sweet.

It’ll all be good by graduation. But just thinking of that makes me want to make these days count. Go to the lunches more, and talk & joke w/ Mary and Alicia a LOT more. No more caring, just go out & do what you want. Live for ME.