Why the fuck does Eric do this shit to me?

He tells Amy that I want a piece of her friend. I happened to glance over at the girl, and she’s not so bad-looking, but I didn’t say a fucking word. I heard Eric say it and I said to shut up. Eric, don’t say stupid shit like that. Just because you’re so (in?)secure about your life doesn’t mean you can go screwing with mine or anyone else’s.

I don’t even know why he did it. Is it that he’s intimidated that I can be happy w/out going around macking myself constantly like he does? Maybe he wants me to have a gf by any means necessary or is it that he thinks he’s doing me a favor?

Then he asks that lady to bring in a picture of her daughter so I could see it. I NEVER ASKED FOR THAT!!

I don’t want to be associated with her skanky white trash fucking daughter! He’s the whole reason Amy won’t stop calling me. He gave her the impression that I wanted to go out with her when I wasn’t the least bit interested, in all actuality!

There are plenty of girls I would like to hang out with & get to know better. Amy #2, Crystal, Heidi. But none of them can hold a fucking candle to Mary.

And I’m not talking looks. Because those 3 are really hot, but I’m talking beyond looks—to content. It’s analgous to judging music by it’s sound and it’s message. Sure, I like songs with a catchy sound. I love pop-punk and ska—even if the lyrics aren’t the greatest thing in the world. But when I hear a great sounding song with inspirational lyrics, or lyrics that I can connect with, or that touch me in a certain way, I “fall in love” with it. I become mildly obsessed with it.

The same way I am with Mary. She’s a very good-looking girl that I completely connect with. And while I still like the private school chicks from work, they just don’t compare.

The big difference is I can change my music style & listen to other songs whenever I want, but it’s a lot different when dealing with people.

Dammit, my thoughts are going through my head so quickly that my wrist is hurting trying to keep up.

All in all, Eric is harmless & he’s not trying to hurt me, I’m sure of that. But I don’t know for sure why he is trying to constantly set me up and cover my back to the point of exhaustion!

Who knows?