Especially w/ Amy #2. I really don’t know what she’s thinking. I’m going to ask her if she wants to hang out on Friday. I’ll even go see Gladiator (which I really have no interest in) if she wants to see it. I don’t care anymore. I want to hang out w/ her one night. I really do. But I odn’t know where she stands on the issue.
The times I asked if she wanted to just “hang out sometime” in a broad general sense, she said no, but she was kind of kidding. She’s really fucking with my head.
Meanwhile, Eric’s got her eating out of his fucking hand. He says anything to her, and she smiles and laughs and all that. And I’m fucking jealous. That’s sad. I don’t want to be jealous, but that was my initial reaction and I’m not going to prepress it. I’m fucking jealous of Eric and his damn likeable personality.
Anything he wants from a girl, he can talk his way into. Lets see, Amy #2, Amy #1, Heidi, Christina, and a lot of others that have crossed his path. He says things to Amy #2 like “you’re so cute” and talks about her lips and she eats up every fucking thing he says.
But I can’t be anything but me. I’m not going to try and top him becuas when I do that, stupid shit happens. Like the choke-out incident (happened because MO’B) or even longer ago the whole thing with Brianna B. and her hair (because of Greg).
No, I’m good enough. I will ask her and if she’s gonna turn me down or say “I don’t know” then I’ll say fuck it. I don’t care. But I just hope she keeps in mind that I not once asked Christina or even really flirted with her too much because I took into account her feelings.
And from that, maybe she’ll go with me. We’ll have to wait and see.
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