Wow, what a situation I’m in.

Well, I guess it’s not really a situation. I don’t know But I am in a damn good mood.

Me and Amy #2 really became a lot closer tonight. First, we have a real meaningful conversation for the first time and I finally get to her take on the whole Christina/Heidi/her situation. It turns out she’s a hell of a lot like I am. I let out about my sXe and I think that really got her thinking. I mean, I really got her to open up to me and I think our relationship is very open now. After hearing her talk about Christina, I realized I can’t be with her. Amy actually put it in perspective for me.

She described exactly what was going on with me. She said “everyone who meets me immediately compares me with Christina”. And I felt like a complete asshole because I’ve been doing just that.

My response: “I judge people individually, not by the company they keep” or something to that effect. And I will do that from now on. I always basically did that, but their friends were always considered. That will end now. I really want to stop doing that.

Also, that guy came in who I’ve been talking to. The DJ. This guy is funny as hell, but he’s gonna shake things up between Amy #2 and I, I think. I can’t believe he was talking all about how hot Christina is in front of Amy. But that may have helped more anyway. Because one of them said something about all the good-looking girls being bitches, but I turned it around, using it as the perfect opportunity to say that I think Amy’s good-looking. I think that if I just ask her to hang out one of these days, that she’ll take me up on it. And that has got me feeling really good.

Now, with Christina, she can get any guy she wants. And after talking to Amy #2 about her, I’d be lying to both her and myself if I were to pursue anything with her. I whoe-heartily believe everything I said to Amy. And now I just want to be with her, because I can easily have fun and talk with her.

—But anyway—

This is going to be an interesting break from school. Besides all the shit I’m gonna go through at work for slacking, and not giving proper notice, and all that stupid shit, I’m just thinking of a few things I can do this break. Paul wants to hang out, and he’s gonna call me, so we can chill one day. I’m thinking of driving down to Red Bank to Jay and Silent Bob’s Secret Stash just for the hell of it and also to maybe buy some stuff. But I don’t know who I’d go down with. I don’t know if I could take that long of a car ride with Paul, I might want to kill him by the end of the trip. Curtis probably wouldn’t be interested, and Eric would most likely be working. I don’t know, maybe I can convince him to take a day off and we could go, possibly w/ Paul.

Also, I want to go down to TCNJ for the Less Than Jake and 2 Skinnee J’s show, but I’ve mentioned this once before. And on May 3, I’ll see Against All Authority in Bound Brook, so I’ve got quite a couple weeks ahead of me. I think I might ask Amy to hang out on—Sunday? Maybe, I don’t know. One of these days. That’s really important to me, though. What a night it’s been.