Ok, I’m taking off of school, yet I’m still up at 6:30

That sucks. I had to go out in the rain, half asleep, and drag the garbage down the steps and now I can’t get back to sleep.

I’ve got Amy on the mind. If we do end up going out, which is a good possibility, then can I ever bring her to my house? I mean, that’s what normal couples do, they hang out at each other’s houses. But, I can’t bring her here and let her see *&%#. Just thinking about it makes me angry, frustrated, and scared.

Well, hopefully, she’ll have started her new job by then and I’ll have enough say in the relationship to bring her over only when mom and the sister are home. I’ll do just that. Whenever *&%# isn’t home, I’ll call her and figure out something to do. It’ll be just like a “regular” relationship, but I’ll have to do a lot more planning and spend a lot more $, since we’ll “go out” more than most will.

Ok, so that’s pretty good. If I can get past this hurdle, then it would be smooth sailing from then on. It’s sad that I have to do it, but I can’t think of any other way, and I really want to keep the awkwardness to a minimum.

Now, to try and get her to begin with…