Ho-ly shit, has it been a while

I come home, and I've been here for maybe 40 minutes, and already I'm rushed with emotions--train of thought stopped--

Ok, I'm a little better now, but I still have a shitload of stuff on my mind. When my mind wanders like this, I like to get it on paper. But my mind wanders so quickly that my hand can't catch up.

What's on my mind? Well, for the most part, Heidi. I told her that I liked her a lot over the phone last night and kind of put the idea out there that we should go out. Although, I don't know if it'll work. With me being at college and her back in the hometown, it would suck for the boht of us. Also, her reaction to my saying "I like you" was "WHY? YOU'RE AT COLLEGE!", so I don't know what that means.

Either way, I'm hanging out with her tomorrow and we're gonna talk it out and all that. What I basically want to say to her is that I like her, and we should be together whenever possible, but we should also be free to explore other people and relationships. It sounds fucked up, but I can't help but feel she thinks the same way.

I'm not giving this entry the attention it deserves. I'm home and I want to do all the things I'm restricted from at college here, so. I'm checking the internet, possibly updating the webzine, and thinking, thinking, thinking...

The good thing about the whole Heidi situation is that if it doesn't work out, then I'll never see her again anyway, so I can do whatever.

Then again, its not that big on my mind anymore. WHAT the hell is wrong with me? I've got that feeling that I have "unfinished business" but I can't pinpoint it.