I'm at the next stage in this crazy pseudo-relationship, and had a chance to finish the stage process altogether, so I would think I would feel something, but I don't. All I feel is that she's gonna be even more attached now; isn't that fucked up?
I've separated my mind and body and offered the latter, and that's it. I still would rather hang out with Alicia or Melody or Ronnie and have fun than do anything with Raechel. But I cannot ignore her. She's a pain in the ass that will come up for a couple seconds, then try and get me away from all my real friends so she can further her fantasy world agenda with me.
I'M NOT YOUR BOYFRIEND, so just back off.
Oh yeah, and on Friday, I'm gonna tell her I can't go. Don't know why yet, but I'll think of something. I want to make it blatantly obvious that I don't enjoy hanging out with her; only staying in (and not necessarily only with her, either). And I'll get some blowback from it, but I don't care anymore. The plan is to say no to Friday, hopefully she'll get pissed, and then I'll have an excuse to back off and tell her that she's become too attached. I'll tell her that I don't want to hurt her, because I don't see any connection between us at all, and that I have a different agenda than she does.
Is she a slut? no, that word holds no meaning to me, because of the gender standard. I am not doing this because society tells me to. If anything, I'm doing the opposite of what society tells me, because I'm actually taking her feelings into account. And it's better off I leave her now, because she's a very clingy person and it's just going to get harder to do as she gets clingier.
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