I wish I could just say it once

I'm free of all the demons infested in me at one time
Earlier in my lifetime
The right time The nighttime they would come out
And I would cower in fear
I'd be laying and thinking so hard, I could almost hear
My thoughts echo
I can't see but it's so damn real
But it's just me in a room by myself
Losing air,
No fear
My life boils on a hot stove
I need to calm down
But I don't know how to get there
Words can't even describe
But sometimes my mind lies and gets weird
It's like too much is running through it
Too much for one druid
Lose it
Set it to music and spew it
The only way to set it free
Expel its seed
Cut from the root, shoot for the heart
Lose it in March
When I become older and wiser
Silence my earlier cries up
Why do they constantly rise up
To remind me of earlier times
What did I do in the days of my youth
To dilute the delusion of truth