"Living with Louie Dog's the only way to stay sane"

I've just thought of something that should really help me out. I've got to stop competing. Because it just occurred to me that that is where all my stress comes from. Competition to have a better life than everyone else I know. I can't treat life like this anymore. And I've begun to let go a little more regarding competition without even realizing it.

My head's just kinda jumbled though. I'm thinking that I haven't hung out with Eric in a while. And I felt like he's kinda winning, because he still has his brother, Craig, Kelly, and Jackson to hang out with while I have fucking Courtney. But I can't think of it like that anymore. I'm also thinking about how this Pip kid is hanging out with Heidi and Amy#2 more than I am, which makes it seem as if he's winning compared to the time I spend with them. But I can't look at it that way. I'm also thinking about how Craig has Heidi and I think Christina wet over him and how I'm sort of a lesser man in their eyes. But I CAN'T LOOK AT IT LIKE THAT.

No, I can't view this as a competition with everyone else, because it turns them into my enemies. And if they're my enemies, then where do I find friends? No one is intentionally disregarding me or shutting me out of their lives. No one is purposefully forgetting about me either, because there are still a lot of people I talk to. I think if I show love, it will come back to me.

If Eric has a good time without you, don't feel resentment, instead be happy that one of your friends was happy for a little while. If Craig bags Christina, don't get jealous, just congratulate him and start looking elsewhere. When Melody and Matt get back together, be happy that your close friend Melody is happy again. This is not a life of convenience. You can't expect to take happiness from others and not feel the Karma come back at you. It's not a contest. There's plenty of happiness in anything you do, but you have to have the right mindset for it.

This thought process has totally got me believing in Karma. Whether it's God's will, or it's just how human's action-response system works, I am really starting to feel it. When I dish out bitter hate, I get it right back at me. But when I show genuine love, I feel it inside me as much as I express it outside of me. To borrow a BEP quote--"this is cause and effect, the domino effect, the what-goes-up-must-come-down effect".

So basically, I just have to show love and genuinely feel for others. I want to wish for the happiness of others and hopefully I get it in return.

To close with a quote from

"let the lovin' oh let the lovin' come back to me"