Some people I just feel sorry for

I went down to the hotel Heidi and Christina are renting out today with Craig, and I realized something. It must suck to be beautiful.

I mean, of course it has its benefits. In fact the benefits probably far outnumber the hindrances, but what I witnessed there kind of opened my eyes. Heidi and Christina don't really have all that many friends. I mean, real friends. All the guys (including me and Craig) that were there were only there because Heidi and Christina are hot. I try to feel as though I'm truly interested in what they've got to say and how they feel, but the whole time I'm only trying to act how they want me to act, and react the way that would best get me on better terms with them. In short, I'm not really being real with them. And I just realized that that's how everyone there was acting. Just bullshit posturing to get in their pants.

And that's why this Anthony kid and kids like him, piss me off so much. After orally date raping Amy#2, he goes ahead and fucks Christina. Wow. Two thirds of the private school chicks I used to sweat, who were cold as ice a short year ago, this kid pops then drops.

But back to the point. No matter how interesting a beautiful person is, the reactions coming back to them aren't going to be genuine because they simply want to offer up this palatable pre-chewed response and hope the bullshit they give seems real. So as a result, people like Heidi have no real genuine friends. All the guys were gunning for her and all the girls were either there with boyfriends or to meet guys.

On another topic, me and Craig are getting a lot closer. He's really chill, which is a nice change of pace from a lot of the people I deal with daily. It's cool because he can talk about anything and we can just offer up our very limited experience on whatever we're talking about. Him and Eric are about the only two people I'm friends with that can do that with me. I mean, I love Curtis and all, but he isn't always saying what he thinks. Instead, he only says what he thinks he should say. Courtney really annoys the shit out of me. He talks such bullshit that he's got it down to an art form.

[I should really get some sleep, though. I'll pick up on this later]--