Okay, I'm reading that Karma book again and I'm going to see if this does anything for me. It asks to explain to yourself exactly who you are, in no superficial or unemotional terms. Just be honest, share honest feelings -- good or bad.
First, I am the son of a single lesbian mother. This, above all else, has most likely shaped me into who I am. I have lived in shame and secrecy for much ofm y life, which has made me fully appreciative of true, honest friendships that don't judge me for who my family is.
Second, I am someone who relies on people. Friends and family both mean so much that they have become central to my life. I broke up with a girl of 3 years in part because I knew that I would never be able to mend that gap between her and my friends.
Third, I am a man of simple pleasures. I would prefer to spend money going out with friends or hanging out with family than buying material things. Although, I look around at my car, my DVDs, my Playstation, TV, Stereo, Computer, high speed internet, and apartment, and laugh taht I could have possibly just said that.
Fourth, I am afraid of being alone. When something I have become comfortable with ends, I feel empty and don't know what is coming next. I hold onto things familiar to me, because it just feels right. My hometown friends, my job at the library, staying in school an extra year, etc. I fear change and I fear losing what I once had.
Fifth, I hate our culture. We are mostly greedy, individualistic pricks who look out for no one but ourselves. Including me. We have everything in this country, yet we still all want more, even at the expense of the rest of the world. Me even writing this entry is just proof that I have too much time on my hands.
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