Is it possible it's over?

The spark has faded? I find myself itching for the freedoms of bachelor life, and maybe I want that loneliness and sense of wonder again. I find myself at once bored and frustrated with our relationship more often than not.

Lucy, I love you and from the heart I expect to in reality spend the rest of my life with you. But I want to make sure that we are ready to accept each other, faults and all, which I don't think we have gotten to yet. I always pictured marriage as a natural progression of a relationship and only after going through the struggles and being able to talk through them will we ever reach that point.

I am madly in love with you. That is not in question. But at 22 years old, still a college student, and still considering myself a kid, I know that I couldn't make a lifelong official commitment at this point in my life. We still go through fights where our very relationship gets put into question, and if we're still shaky at times, then we are nowhere near--

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-you have different short-term plans than me

-? our relationship

-you must wait a few years, at least

-if you're not willing to wait, I understand

-"what if?" I got sick? Can't be bullied into marriage.

-2 years is a big difference

-love to spoil you. Love to make you happy. But this is one thing I can't do. Must do on my own time, when I'm ready

-still try to avoid fights instead of being comfortable

-don't love yourself. Need to look inside before attaching yourself to someone

-WANT me, not NEED me

-understand your need for kids. Me too. -- but can't rush into this for that reason

-I pray to God you understand. If not, I don't want to hurt you.

-Obsession with Raechel. Need to accept the fact that I love you. She's out of my life, as much as you want to bring her back in.

-Must accept that Craig, Eric, Matt, Curtis, Sharon WILL be in my life. If you can accept that, we're closer

-Marriage is going to be different than our relationship now.

-We're compromising more

-Not "all about you" anymore

-My movies, music, sports. Things that make me happy JUST AS IMPORTANT as you, maybe to learn more about me