I think Heidi likes me.

Okay, I know she likes me, but I think she might possibly want to go out with me. Now the problem is not to get too excited or attached. She's hot, hot as hell, and she's very likable, so I'm pretty much set for the short term, but I'm going to need more substance for any long-term relationship. So, I know I'm thinking way too far into the future, but I'm stupid like that. The key is to be comfortable, stay who I am, and if she tires of me or gets bored, then I have to say "good-bye" and move on without too much emotional baggage.

--Train of thought stopped--

I still have no desire whatsoever to go to a frat party. Curtis has found his niche, basically because his parents told him to, so he's happy with going out every Friday and Saturday and drinking or whatever. I feel a little resentment, because it's almost like he's betrayed me to be a stupid partier, but he's still Curtis, and we're still great friends, possibly stronger than ever.

I haven't written like this in a while, basically because I don't really have time, but also because I've become sort of content. The big problems I've had to deal with are finding things to do that don't involve partying (since I find parties boring as shit), keeping up with schoolwork (especially German, Expository English, and Calculus,a nd I guess Philosophy soon...that's all of 'em), and attempting to console the girls on the floor without becoming pissed off.

Melody's a loose cannon. I like her a lot, but it's very hard to know what to say to "I have no friends", "Mikey was my life", "what should I do with my life", and the like...I can only hope that she gets over him and slowly breaks away from her J-Town crew, because whenever she goes there, it fucking kills her.

Me, on the other hand, I'm in an ok situation. Heidi emailed me telling me that she broke up with Special K aka Mike, and I guess I was the first guy she thought of. When I called her, one of the first things she asked was "do you have a girlfriend?", so I'm thinking that's a pretty good sign. I'm going to call her one day this week and set up some time over the weekend to hang out with her, because I am seizing this opportunity without a doubt. I'm going to invite her up to the college for a weekend too, possibly when Curtis is away or at a frat party, so we can be alone. I just wonder what her intentions are. We'll have to see about that..

I guess that's all I really want to write about right now, although I could probably go on for a while writing about Alicia and Dan, Melody, and other stuff I'm thinking about, but I have more homework to do, so I'll have to save it for later.