My nervousness around good looking girls. Like Burns' house, but I'm a little better.
Done mowing Jimmy's lawn FOREVER.
Get sick when the cousins talk about Kevin Smith. They have no idea that he's against people just like them in his movies. Also HATE hearing about how M treats his girlfriend like shit. That doesn't make you cool, M. It only confirms my suspicion that you're a spoiled asshole. I love you, but I really truly feel that way.
I need a haircut.
I need a girlfriend.
10 days...
I want out of this fucking town as soon as possible. I really need freedom. Like LBDA-S say "everyone wants a little taste of anarchy"
Did I mention 10 days...?
Friday, October 15, 2010
Bleh. What's on my mind?
I ask that every time I'm about to write.
I think I'll keep thought disk and a book, so this way I've got the best of both worlds. I can't use this book as one, I'll get another like the 2nd one.
Well, my political and personal life were bound to meet, so again there's conflict. What do I value more? My personal comfort and convenience or the human rights of others? I don't know. I'll have to explore that a little better when I'm not so tired.
My head is tired right now, so I'll do the "thought bites" that I do when I can't write cohesively:
Me and the cousins are very different people. We don't seem to have much in common at all anymore.
I've got to call Paul one of these days, since I blew him off the other day.
I love my computer. But I'm scared my sister's gonna fuck it up.
I've seen pretty much everyone on my hang out list for the summer in the last week (Josh/Paul/Jake/Eric/Alicia/Curtis/Becky/Courtney/Burns). Weird.
I think I'll keep thought disk and a book, so this way I've got the best of both worlds. I can't use this book as one, I'll get another like the 2nd one.
Well, my political and personal life were bound to meet, so again there's conflict. What do I value more? My personal comfort and convenience or the human rights of others? I don't know. I'll have to explore that a little better when I'm not so tired.
My head is tired right now, so I'll do the "thought bites" that I do when I can't write cohesively:
Me and the cousins are very different people. We don't seem to have much in common at all anymore.
I've got to call Paul one of these days, since I blew him off the other day.
I love my computer. But I'm scared my sister's gonna fuck it up.
I've seen pretty much everyone on my hang out list for the summer in the last week (Josh/Paul/Jake/Eric/Alicia/Curtis/Becky/Courtney/Burns). Weird.
I like Paul
It's just that he can be really sexist. And his sexism opened my eyes to how rampant it is in the school.
The actual conversation (B- me, P- Paul, J-Justin)
P-"What do you think of that girl?"
B- "She's pretty cool"
P- "I think she's a bitch"
J- "C'mon, she's got big tits"
P- "So? Alice has big tits, they're still both fat"
That conversation sickened me. And I hear it constantly! Let's see:
Dalurio- (in gym class) "Maybe if she was hot, she'd have something to contribute to the team, but she's butt-ugly, so she's worthless"
Lee- "Man, all the girls in this class are butt. Look (pointing out each girl individually) "butt...butt...butt..."
Eric- "Yeah, she's a bitch, but I hear she gives really good head"
This shit is killing me. Don't they realize that there's more than just a face and a set of tits there?
The actual conversation (B- me, P- Paul, J-Justin)
P-"What do you think of that girl?"
B- "She's pretty cool"
P- "I think she's a bitch"
J- "C'mon, she's got big tits"
P- "So? Alice has big tits, they're still both fat"
That conversation sickened me. And I hear it constantly! Let's see:
Dalurio- (in gym class) "Maybe if she was hot, she'd have something to contribute to the team, but she's butt-ugly, so she's worthless"
Lee- "Man, all the girls in this class are butt. Look (pointing out each girl individually) "butt...butt...butt..."
Eric- "Yeah, she's a bitch, but I hear she gives really good head"
This shit is killing me. Don't they realize that there's more than just a face and a set of tits there?
Ha!
Neilson [math teacher] feels we should get a sense of what we believe in before we go off to college. Learning morals from the bible or through fear is NOT what we need right now.
Instead of arguing over the existence of God, wouldn't we be better off educating ourselves about the world around us? Now, people might think praying each night will change the world, and I'll respect that opinion, but I will say NOTHING will be changed unless us humans, not gods, take action and get things the way we want it.
I want to call him out. Because this is one argument I will not lose. I would get him to admit that the bible was written by rich white men and DEFINITELY altered to appease their sexist, racist views. Women are less than men. Jesus and his apostles were white. It's bullshit.
There is no way. But those are just "minor details" I guess.
He thinks he's so damn morally superior to us. That because we dye our hair, get a tattoo, get a piercing, or wear something "offensive" (through his perspective), that makes us evil. He does it so damn subtly, but he does it, nonetheless. It sounds very harsh, but he's a neo-fascist.
Like when I wore that t-shirt, he says "what does that show about what kind of a person you are?". Dickhead.
Instead of arguing over the existence of God, wouldn't we be better off educating ourselves about the world around us? Now, people might think praying each night will change the world, and I'll respect that opinion, but I will say NOTHING will be changed unless us humans, not gods, take action and get things the way we want it.
I want to call him out. Because this is one argument I will not lose. I would get him to admit that the bible was written by rich white men and DEFINITELY altered to appease their sexist, racist views. Women are less than men. Jesus and his apostles were white. It's bullshit.
There is no way. But those are just "minor details" I guess.
He thinks he's so damn morally superior to us. That because we dye our hair, get a tattoo, get a piercing, or wear something "offensive" (through his perspective), that makes us evil. He does it so damn subtly, but he does it, nonetheless. It sounds very harsh, but he's a neo-fascist.
Like when I wore that t-shirt, he says "what does that show about what kind of a person you are?". Dickhead.
Don't really know how to start this
So I'll just get right into it.
One of my friends received a call from one of his friends (who I'm acquaintances with) who says he might have gotten herpes from a girl. Now, this doesn't affect me personally, but it was important to me because of the small conversation that ensued afterwards between my friend and I.
#1, it was a big secret and I had to promise not to tell anyone anything before he even told me the news. Now, after he told me, I fully understood, but it still didn't sit right with me that in this society, so many things aren't put out in the open and discussed. If he were to have another disease not through sexual contact, then it wouldn't have even been an issue of secrecy. But in America, if you have an STD, you are immediately labeled and blacklisted. And everyone looks down on you. You're taught to feel shame for having it, and try not to let anyone know.
What did he do that was so wrong? he did what the majority of kids do during high school, he had sex and acted young and stupid like most kids. Not everyone knows exactly how to live and act as a young teen, and he simply acted on his natural urges and emotion.
He's still a fucking human being.
Everyone gets the feelings he has, but everyone deals with it in a different way. I don't know if he used protection, but if he didn't, then, again, it was a stupid mistake at one time in his life. Does that automatically make him a scumbag who should be cut out of society? Of course not. Maybe if there was more open discussion about these kinds of things, and if they would stop constantly preaching abstinence and instead educate youth about contraception and simply give them the facts, maybe they could choose for themselves and maybe make that decision a little clearer.
Instead of scaring kids with biased opinions and preaching morals, we should help kids embrace these feelings and teach them how to deal with them, not deem them as "impure thoughts" and tell them that it's evil. Once everyone admits that they have all this baggage and loose ends in their fucked-up minds, we will be able to keep an open mind when dealing with everyone's problems and hearing past mistakes, and most importantly, we'll be able to learn from them so we don't make the same mistakes.
keeping all problems bottled up, or telling people that can't tell anyone else doesn't help the overall problem in the end at all. Just admitting that there is a problem is hard, nearly impossible, for this "great nation" to do. This is why there is a drug problem, and this is why STDs are running rampant, and this is why we can feel good about bombing other countries. It's because America gives us a false sense of satisfaction by looking down at drug addicts, or people with STDs, or foreigners. It's all interconnected. And these "morals" which are preached--American can take them and stick them up their ass.
One of my friends received a call from one of his friends (who I'm acquaintances with) who says he might have gotten herpes from a girl. Now, this doesn't affect me personally, but it was important to me because of the small conversation that ensued afterwards between my friend and I.
#1, it was a big secret and I had to promise not to tell anyone anything before he even told me the news. Now, after he told me, I fully understood, but it still didn't sit right with me that in this society, so many things aren't put out in the open and discussed. If he were to have another disease not through sexual contact, then it wouldn't have even been an issue of secrecy. But in America, if you have an STD, you are immediately labeled and blacklisted. And everyone looks down on you. You're taught to feel shame for having it, and try not to let anyone know.
What did he do that was so wrong? he did what the majority of kids do during high school, he had sex and acted young and stupid like most kids. Not everyone knows exactly how to live and act as a young teen, and he simply acted on his natural urges and emotion.
He's still a fucking human being.
Everyone gets the feelings he has, but everyone deals with it in a different way. I don't know if he used protection, but if he didn't, then, again, it was a stupid mistake at one time in his life. Does that automatically make him a scumbag who should be cut out of society? Of course not. Maybe if there was more open discussion about these kinds of things, and if they would stop constantly preaching abstinence and instead educate youth about contraception and simply give them the facts, maybe they could choose for themselves and maybe make that decision a little clearer.
Instead of scaring kids with biased opinions and preaching morals, we should help kids embrace these feelings and teach them how to deal with them, not deem them as "impure thoughts" and tell them that it's evil. Once everyone admits that they have all this baggage and loose ends in their fucked-up minds, we will be able to keep an open mind when dealing with everyone's problems and hearing past mistakes, and most importantly, we'll be able to learn from them so we don't make the same mistakes.
keeping all problems bottled up, or telling people that can't tell anyone else doesn't help the overall problem in the end at all. Just admitting that there is a problem is hard, nearly impossible, for this "great nation" to do. This is why there is a drug problem, and this is why STDs are running rampant, and this is why we can feel good about bombing other countries. It's because America gives us a false sense of satisfaction by looking down at drug addicts, or people with STDs, or foreigners. It's all interconnected. And these "morals" which are preached--American can take them and stick them up their ass.
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