Okay, it's time to fucking vent

I'm in a weird mood and I have to pretend like I'm doing homework. What's got me pissed off? Well, for one, to be blunt, --Sharon. Why? I don't have an exact answer to that. I do know that every time I make a statement about my opinion on ANYTHING, she always feels the need to contradict me. It could be about anything, it doesn't matter. Today I mentioned that I think checks can last 3 years. Automatically, just as anything else I say, her first word was "no".

Now, I don't even argue anymore. It's not worth it. It seems like a wasted effort. Personally, I don't see how Curtis can stand it. And they are not broken up. That's the other thing. They are officially broken up, but they still spend every waking moment together, they go to frat parties together, they spend time alone constantly talking, both in her and our rooms, and they never have spent any time doing anything with anyone else. So, for all practical purposes, they are still a couple, whether they want to admit it or not, or just pretend like they are at specific times when it's beneficial to them. Personally, I call it bullshit posturing, but what do I know? I'm sure Sharon would have a great counter for whatever it is I have to say at which point I would deem her right, regardless of whether I believe it or not.

I think mostly everyone here is spoiled. They have no idea how good they have it and they are constantly looking for something to complain about. It's like their lives don't seem to have meaning if there's not something for them to cry over. And I can't exclude myself from this. I personally have been pissed off over really stupid shit, and I know that my life is a hell of a lot better than it used to be and it's a hell of a lot better than others' lives, yet I still complain. So why do I care about what they complain about?

Well, for one, it affects me. They come to me, complaining about something and I have to take the time to listen and console them or talk with them or spend the night while they puke in my room while Curtis goes downstairs with Sharon and turn their heads to them. And I really don't mind doing this. I want to point out that I love Curtis. He's my best friend, and I don't blame him for leaving when shit like this goes down **train of thought stopped**

But what pisses me off is that I get no appreciation at all for it. At least, they don't show it. I not once got a thank you for helping, but I've come to accept that. It's behind me.

So now, I sit and wait for the night time to hit. I wait for me to be alone with nothing to do but sit here by myself because I don't like to party. I should have known going in that if you don't like to party and get wasted, then you don't deserve any true friends. The two just go hand in hand. Obviously if you hate the act of going to houses full of horny, date-raping frat boys, and worshiping the culture surrounding alcohol and all its glories, if you don't enjoy that, then you deserve to be ostracized. Maybe tonight though, it can be a relaxed night with some people in the dorm and we can just hang out and just spend the time drinking with each other instead of going out to some loud obnoxious frat. Hopefully we can just chill and have fun in a laid back atmosphere.

It's just aht I still don't understand the point in drinking. Okay, it relaxes you and keeps you from stopping yourself in certain situations--I don't need alcohol for that. It's a social drug which allows everyone to be happy and content with one another. Okay, that kinda makes sense, but once everyone is happy and content, what next? They keep drinking. Instead of using alcohol as the icebreaker and means to relax, we use it as the primary source of entertainment. It kinda goes: friendly but awkward, a little buzz and more relaxed with each other, then strictly everything turns to alcohol---"look at how drunk he is" "I'm so fucking wasted" "that kid's a fuckin lightweight, he's only had 3 beers", etc etc...

That's boring to me. I need more out of people than strictly talking about how drunk they can get. Of course, when people start getting bored with just getting drunk, that's when they do things that they can't do when they're sober. For some, that's simply talking to a girl. For others, it's cheating on their boy/girlfriends. And for some others, it's commiting random acts of vandalism.

I'm not saying doing any of these things are necessarily wrong. In fact, I look forward to doing stupid shit sometimes. But the fact is, I don't need to be drunk to do them.

SO, t sum all this shit up, I have nothing against getting drunk--in fact, given the right circumstances, I would get drunk just as anyone else would. The problem I have is with the petty secret club that comes as a result of it. The fact that people seem uncomfortable or out of place without alcohol is a given. But why? I'm thinking a lot of people tend to use it as a crutch, and without it, they just don't feel relaxed. But this IS a generalization, so there are many, many exceptions. So, if I were to give one statement, it would be not to use something as petty as how much someone drinks as a basis of how good of friends you can be with them. Get to know people and stop being so damn superficial.

Whew. The end.