Damn, my self-confidence shoots up & down so fucking fast, that I really cant handle it.

After today, it is well up. I mean jeez, Brianna Burns & I strike up a conversation (an empty one, but it killed time) in 1^st period, I had my usual confused Spanish period w/ Mary, then the rest of my stupid schoolday.

But then at Shop Rite, shit, between “headgear” Jamie, Amy #1, Amy #2, and Crystal, I didn’t have a moment to myself.

Amy (#1) is getting very annoying, though, “come walk with me to get those carts” , “you can leave, Sherm, I’ll stay with Brian”, “I’ll work with you on the floor”, “do you want me to come with you, or…?”

Ugh, just leave with Sherm. Oh yeah, “fine, leave, I’ll just get a ride with Brian” Dammit take a FUCKING HINT.

Oh, well, I’m still happy. I kind of want to hang out with Amy (#2) one day. Maybe ask her to go to a place if Mary and Alicia are going with their people. She’s cool and likeable. Maybe I’ll ask her. I just need the opportunity to arise. See, I can still lead a happy life w/out Mary. Maybe it worked out better having her as a friend. But maybe not. I don’t know. I need sleep.