...and turn your back on, and we can't move forward past this stumbling block until we face it head on.
My friends are not in competition with you. They are people I have grown to know well and love in a certain way. You are in a position in my life where you are not just another friend, but something more. My friends will always be a part of my life, and you have chosen to ignore that fact. It's almost as if you don't expect me to see them anymore, because they take me away from paying full attention to you. But they are a PART of me. They were there for me coming up and I refuse to turn my back on them and phase them out of my life.
It would be ideal if I didn't have to live separate lives and bring these two worlds together, but I know that is unlikely, and I want to reach some sort of compromise where you accept the fact that by committing yourself to me, you are committing yourself to ALL of me, including the part of me that respects past friendships enough to keep them alive. This is something I don not take lightly and it is something that I really hope and pray that you come to accept and understand.
If you have noticed, the majority of our fights come from you believing that I am not paying enough attention to you or that I am not committed enough to you. I think you equate my friendships as something juvenile and something I have not grown out of yet, while in my mind, I am waiting for the day you realize that these are people who will be in my life forever.
The same goes for my family. Until you can realize that I can talk to other people and still love you just as much as I do when its just us together, there will always be this conflict.
Why can't I finish entries anymore???
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